1. |
Atlas
02:43
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My mind's been flooded for more than forty days
But I forced myself to float with boats that split apart but somehow stayed
On top that water, wandering like concrete beneath the feet
This one's for the ant hills turned mountain peaks that won't retreat
Tunnel vision stricken, spittin' liquor out my lifeline
So I can finally hold the torch correctly in the night time
(Burn it down) Start from scratch, flip the tables, eat the scraps
Scrape the broken plates clean, so now the skinny's getting fat (what)
My people pace around a school of fish
And add that mercury to mix before they finally fry the dish
And I'm no different... I'm stripping mother nature like a vixen
Forcing her to blow the whistle like a fucking rape victim
Didn't really fall asleep, but still feels like I'm waking up
For once, I listened to that voice that screamed through where I taped it shut
Stuck between a boulder and a bottomless abyss
Awake for Now, for all I know, tomorrow won't exist
like... shit... Is that it? Naw it can't be it...
I walked the desert for more than forty days
And I held a conversation with Satan until my soul was plagued
Now it's Hades hanging over heads like where my raps are
Completely in the dark, but still create where they don't have stars (yep)
I slit myself the smallest slice of Heaven
And buried that below so I could grow in that direction
I'm digging deep enough to sink beneath the weight of Earth
And now I'm eye to eye with Atlas trying to pass me off his curse
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2. |
Angel Dust
03:37
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The first time I saw the Devil
I told myself, I'm on a different level
I'm witnessing the rock bottom floor, to which I've settled
But I sunk beneath the cold to find the warmth of melted metal
I must admit, it might have been a couple years
Since I've seen the likes of gratified pride persevere
Looking up to see a palace while perdition interferes
Paint iridescent with pestilent and watch it disappear
The main reason why a man within a mirror
Only has a ghost to galvanize the nothing that is here
That could be the apparition of the pleasure that reveres
Being opposite to somber in a sight that's ever clear
I think about it way too often when I'm lost within
Maybe being lost is consequent of being cognizant?
Contemplate the possibility of having breathe inside a lung
But never letting this exhale until it chokes on what it's done
Then it sleeps
Yeah, I might not be awake
But still I know that I'm alive enough to have a soul to take
And If I fall asleep forever in a dream that I've created
Would I barricade myself inside a spot that's golden gated?
Or would I find myself completely unimpressed?
Showing up like twenty minutes late, sort of under dressed
So I stitched myself a garment, gave it glitter for the shine
Found some string inside my pocket, formed a circle from the twine
Pull it tight and tie a knot... Place it right above my head
Let it fight the gravity that made a mortal lay in bed
Pull it tight and tie a knot... Let it float around my head
Let it sail the buoyancy that made immortal out of dead
My skin is shed
The first time I saw the Savior
I asked if we could talk about it later
He said that it was major, and he may have been the maker
But he made it rather difficult to conjure what he catered
I came and saw and conquered, but I contemplate just where I came from
And it's been difficult, trying to dance to mundane drums
I've been dragging this skin covered skeleton
So I can't imagine a mind state where Hell ascends
I was in a solitary asylum where silence was seldom
Inside the noise was a void that was violently welcome
Until I felt numb... I was in a pot that was melting
And it was mixed with a wish that a penny was pelting
And I put every single thought I have into action
Til the act is an axe that is actively slashin'
A setback til I'm back at it
A dream is but a wish that is way more charismatic
My cycle's so erratic
Yeah, I might not be asleep
But still I know that I'm alive enough to have a soul to keep
And If I fall asleep forever in a dream that I've created
Would I barricade myself inside a spot that's golden gated?
Or would I find myself completely unimpressed?
Showing up like twenty minutes late, sort of under dressed
So I stitched myself a garment, gave it glitter for the shine
found some string inside my pocket, formed a circle from the twine
Pull it tight and tie a knot... Place it right above my head
Let it fight the gravity that made a mortal lay in bed
Pull it tight and tie a knot... Let it float around my head
Let it sail the buoyancy that made immortal out of dead
The last time I saw the Devil, told myself I'm on HIS level
Levitate to see the site in which I've settled
Now sit upon a throne and feel a thorn that doesn't let go
But I left my last rights written on a ragged head stone
I seem to slip into oblivion, pivot upon a pendulum
Picture putting the petals upon a stem (ascend to him)
Now, send em in, I'm setting up the speeches that I'm gettin'
Where they glorify the glamour and they reach for the restrictions
Yeah, I'm trippin'... Training wheels took off the unicycle
Now I'm balancing the beam of loving life and suicidal
Side by side, simultaneous... Asking where they're taking us?
Flap my little wings above the fire til I'm angel dust
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3. |
Nullified Living
04:00
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Constant contemplation, conversation with myself on a daily basis
I get that chance, I'm gonna take it
Some people take their time with it, my time has been forever wasted
How you gonna reach that potential pinnacle if you never chase it?
Trembling inside from the all the chalk lines I've been drawing
The outline doesn't outshine from the cloud nine that's been calling
I call my mother, call my father, call my brother, call my sister
Now place the phone upon Keziah's head so I can kiss her
I wish that I could place a phone call to a couple of friends...
But they've been doing so much cocaine, they can't comprehend
And I've been doing so much thinking, I don't think I'll sleep
Been trying to function off a few hours throughout the week
I waste away and wage a war with where I wish I was
I find that peace when I piece potential with what it does
Doing something isn't all that easy
To actively pursue that destination til it frees me
Whoever said the journey is the path that's most intriguing
Has never really reached that realization that it's seeking
I seem to slip within euphoric when exploring the dormant
While dominating what I'm making is a morgue meta-morphing
Into a mausoleum where they modify what I'm seeing
Until I see the light between the cracks that keep me from dreaming (OK)
I've been drinking out the wishing well that couldn't spare a quarter
I correlate my correspondence with corroding corners
A broken border that border lines what they board up
And boredom is begging me to be eager until the door's shut
Fuck... I'm seeing it slam in my face
I'm hearing a voice's advisory to react with irate
I'm raising the interest of giving with how much more can I take?
I'm making it seem like it's nothing but I'm still numb from mistakes
OK, I can run around in circles, jump a thousand mounds of hurdles
After going toe to toe with tenebrous, the bliss is fertile
I waste away and wage a war with where I wish I was
I find that peace when I piece potential with what it does
Doing something isn't all that easy
To actively pursue that destination til it frees me
Whoever said the journey is the path that's most intriguing
Has never really reached that realization that it's seeking
This promise that I'm keeping
I'll make it soon enough, so make some room
To infiltrate and renovate, rent is late so await the gloom
Glowing like the grandeur that was gleaming from the sun
But as soon as it was setting, I was sleeping with a gun
Started scheming just for fun, turned to fiending for the funds
Learned the fundamentals, now it's essential to be the one
Once upon a time, I pushed a life line to a limit
Now it lives beyond a broken box that bides time with a cynic
Sign times with a sentence like a prisoner on death row
Strapped in to an electric chair, blacked out, so I let go
Woke up in a dark room, now I'm yelling out to an echo
Felt free from the melting, and the straps off sorta said so
Something in me said go, so I got up and I got out
And I got love for the ghost town that I came from, but I lost count
The amount of mother fuckers that'll put fangs on a neck
To nullify the living that was caged in from the flesh... yes.
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4. |
Walk on Water
03:41
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My heart is beating barely, walking through the motions
They walk on top of oceans... My ocean floor's approachin'
I'm coastin'...
Without a care, my consciousness is common sense
Constantly reminding me, I'm nowhere near accomplishment
Put that bread within my trail, put that wind inside my sail
Put your confidence in me, I promise that I'm not gon' fail
I think somebody lied, cause failure is an option
I've seen so many people fail, it's custom now to not win
Winding up with nothing is nowhere that I've been stuck in
Staying busy, paddling this boat until it's sunken
Something sinister sitting inside a sordid mental state
Thinking that it's open season for this force to infiltrate
Trading in my troubles, trials and tribulations
That tried to chain the ankles til tranquility came through
Thank You. I think You know exactly who You are...
For showing me, I shine too bright to be around some stars
I know I'm bound to blow up, shit I work too fucking hard
To be denied forever, knowing Heaven's not that far... away
My heart is beating barely, walking through the motions
They walk on top of oceans, my ocean floor's approachin'
Coastin' without a care, looking up to nothing there
Waiting for that hand to hold a soul that's simply running scared
Heart beating barely, walking through the motions
They walk on top of oceans, my ocean floor's approachin'
I'm soakin'...
Somebody send me something I can float upon
Pick apart the pine box they put me in for oh so long
Knowing that I'll fight before I'm fallen, never going calm
Clutching on that iceberg in Hell that's hardly holding on
I find myself between a furnace and a flat line
Looking for this ladder that I'd love to climb but can't find
Feeling claustrophobic when the walls begin to close me in
See the ceiling sealing in my fate that finally shows the end
Never had a choice, a voice can get evicted
When the vision is a victim to a difference in opinion
That was stripping the intention of a ascending to ascendance
I see the silver lining shining in the distance
I glance upon the glimmering spectacle that it is
And try to intervene the beams conveniently to where I live
Even if I burn alive trying to channel light to loved ones
I'll look upon the good and thank the Lord I've finally done some
Sprinkle angel dust upon a fairy tale
That I've been told since I was crib stricken, sipping holy grails
Maybe that would make this heretic desert a stance
That if the eminence was limitless, man might have a chance
I don't think that we can make it when the leaders we've appointed
Takes the blame for all the good but not the evil he's avoided
Annoyed with the anointed, break it down and then destroy it
Who put the point to pointless? Point them out and I'll rejoice then
But I'm too busy buying bi products
Off these putrid pig farmers, put flies in my toxic-ally enhanced habitat
That I can call my homeland
That's going straight to Hades, if you're talking to my old man
This one's for the random nights I tried to sleep but never slept
Every time my mother cried, I wound up drowning where she wept
Kept the cold sweats to serve a sentimental purpose
Push upon a ceiling, soon enough, the sky emerges
It's perfect.
My heart is beating barely, walking through the motions
They walk on top of oceans, my ocean floor's approachin'
Coastin' without a care, looking up to nothing there
Waiting for that hand to hold a soul that's simply running scared
Heart beating barely, walking through the motions
Walk on top of oceans. ocean floor appraochin'
Coastin'... Coastin'...
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5. |
Flip the Tables
03:24
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Get em in a frenzy
Point out who's been eating while my stomach's feeling empty
Envy in an instrument, I play it like an angel does a harp
Harness harmonies that break the hardest hearts
Been waiting for the ending ever since I saw it start
Like is this the beginning or is this where I depart?
It's hard to comprehend the two when all you know is limbo
And your stuck in flux searching for the outro or the intro
This though? This is that stirring up the pot shit
Changing everything like a man saying he's God's kid
I kid you not, they're mocking everything I worship
Someone took the temple and made a market out of churches
And if there is a God, then I'd imagine he'll return
And take the royalties from those that never did a thing to earn
Flip the tables
Circling around me
Heads focused on the words that truly got em bouncing
Pounding out the speaker like a preacher on a power trip
Thinking people listen pending on how loud the shouting is
Um... Hallelujah, end of service
False prophet, pocketing the profits of his servants
Circling around the congregation that he's workin'
Until one day, some bad apple sees that he's a serpent
Swervin'... Searching for the day in which the curse ends
Cursing out the counterfeit until they close the curtains
Hold the door, I'm bout to start sparking up this place
Stone cold, throwing brimstone to blow up in their face
Fix the fiction, find facts amidst the fables
Wolves teeth eat sheep asleep inside the stables
Flip the tables
Now they're going bat shit
Love to watch me kill it like when Juliet was last kissed
Deadly... Didn't think that I was ready
But then I read the writing on the wall, that shit was heavy
It said that I would sacrifice everything to see the light
And all the sudden, day dreaming dragged me through the sleepless nights
You see it right? Well I'm standing right in front of you
Flying carpets over heads while pulling rugs from under you
Nothing new... I've been doing this ever since
Molten rock cooling off, becoming sediments
I gave a man cave, now he's cutting fucking jungles up
Biting off the very hand that fed his supple supper's lunch
Once upon a time, everything was black
Holy shit, I think it's coming back
Flip the fucking tables
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6. |
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Waiting patient, pacing in a barren basement
The bottomless is infinite and fairy tales are ancient
I'm aiming for the pack of wolves that wage a war on sheep
Because I know that I'll be judged upon the company I keep
It's all peace
To the promise land awaiting my arrival
I was rinsing off the random blood of tactical survival
Sucking out the snake venom, spit it back into a vial
Very carefully encapsulate and take it when it's vital
My view upon the big picture when I pick apart the pixels
Is similar to simians shooting scud missiles
Out a rocket ship that flew us to the moon
Through a sky full of satellites to watch my every move
And I was on a train track to triumph through atrocity
But somehow became a cog within this aristocracy... Fuck.
Looking around like, "what the fuck is happenin'?"
My fellow man is feasting on a family that it can't defend
Feeling famished and I ain't a fan of fasting
But shit, it's fight or flight and I've been flapping these wax wings
It's pretty humbling, hunger is in abundancy
But luckily, I got this haunted house to keep me company
It fucks with me
Waiting patient, pacing in a barren basement
The bottomless is infinite and fairy tales are ancient
I'm aiming for the pack of wolves that wage a war on a sheep
Because I know that I'll be judged upon the company I keep
Now, a piece of me is thinking, "I should chainsaw a tree."
And try to transform the trunk into a staff of mystique
And I am not a fan of glitter gleaming glimmer like it's gold
So I take a number, stand in line until the bread is mold
Make a soldier out a citizen and start the revolution
I'm turning off my television now... LET'S GET IT MOVIN'
Make a billion, multiply it by the seven deadly sins
Until it equals an illusive body, spreading itself thin until it ends
OK?
I wanted to be that dude that dominates
Until I saw a domino deciding where a bomb should break
Basically, it made me sit and soak the situation in
Like, "if you wanna kill me, why the fuck did you create me then?"
It's maybe making sense... Make the money, make a fence
Make the commoners covet all you make and take from them
I take it in with salt sprinkled on my cyanide
Spoon full of sugar to ensure I'm shaking when I die
YOLO... Unless the second life is lived forever...
That could amazing for a little while... But shit, forever???
Forever never knew that it was never going to go away
Until it got some revenue that road the horse we know today
As doomsday that's more dead than any hand that wrote the document
I really doubt a death threat is part of God's intent
I tend to take away whatever is given to me
And I'm honestly appreciative but this shit is confusing
Waiting patient, pacing in a barren basement
The bottomless is infinite and fairy tales are ancient
I'm aiming for the pack of wolves that wage a war on sheep
Because I know that I'll be judged upon the company I keep
Now, a piece of me is thinking, "I should chainsaw a tree"
And try to transform the trunk into a staff of mystique
And I am not a fan of glitter gleaming glimmer like it's gold
So I take a number, stand in line until the bread is mold
Make a soldier out a citizen and start the revolution
I'm turning off my television now... LET'S GET IT MOVIN'
Make a billion, multiply it by the seven deadly sins
Until it equals an illusive body, spreading itself thin until it ends
OK.
I'm Forty years fortified
Climbing up to cloud nine, snake staff on my side
Trying to build something special that's beyond comprehension
Compromise getting with how much did I give in
I give it all I got but that's where it gets tricky
Having nothing left to lose in the investment for ascending
When you're sitting on a cinder, straight sweating like a sinner
You begin to grow accustom to a cause you can't remember
I'm really rising up for real this time, I promise
Even if i blink or fall asleep, my vision gets accomplished
Cause I paint this pretty picture on the inside of my eyelids
As long as I'm awake, I'll wait for peace until i find it
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7. |
Human Sacrifice
03:20
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As I approach the possibility of rising up
Start rolling out that carpet, red as blood to signify my love
My life is losing it's momentum as of now
But it's OK because I got this heart of gold to hold me down
I took everything I had... Put it right next to a fire pit
Pushed all my possessions towards the torches where the light was lit
Watched it burn to ashes and at first it felt amazing
Once the smoke smothered, every cloud started changing
Chocking on the oxygen is not exactly optimal
I've been on some optimistic, anything is possible
So now I rock a gas mask everywhere I go
I'm that seed inside this land fill that forced itself to grow
Now is the fruit that I ingest really infected with the pestilence?
Or is the pesticide they spray a form of modern medicine?
Might be out my gourd but that's because I ate a steak
With ammonia in the middle just to make sure it was safe
I've been on that kryptonite since Superman was dead
They say "adapt or be deceased," so I'm just trying to plan ahead
And this is what it's like when everything around you turns to quicksand
And pulls upon your ankles just to see what you can withstand
I keep my spirits HIGH like celestial
So if I need to sacrifice a skeleton, I'll let it go
I swear, I see these satellites swarming outside my bedroom window
Once they take my picture, they place it into a pile of info
While they infiltrate the privacy that I do not withhold
I just hang my hat on, "fuck it all." I guess it's mind control
Slid my soul inside this envelope and sent it out to sanctity
Thankfully, the response did not decree me to take a knee
Basically, it told me to just be my fucking self
And for once in my entire life, I was not scared of Hell
What a concept they constructed up to kill the confidence
Of any connoisseur that's contemplating it's consciousness
Put me in the ground before you box me in
So I can fertilize the future right beneath your walking limbs
And this is what it's like when everything around you turns to quicksand
And pulls upon your ankles just to see what you can withstand
I keep my spirits HIGH like celestial
So If I need to sacrifice a skeleton, I'll let it go
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8. |
Smooth
03:34
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They speed it up, I'm trying to slow it down
I take my time. I hate where I'm at but I love what I do til I go to the ground
With a hand full of dirt... I'm back for the work
Digging myself up out of this grave that I gave to myself but I can't convert
Looking back to a back and wall and a spine inclined with a passion to crawl
Dug deep underneath on my knees, but it's cool cause I found what I need to stand tall
Right? Right... Look at me, I got everything I need
I'm an obstacle away from being better than you've ever been
Cause every time I fail, I get a feeling that injects the sense
That something was accomplished on this conquest
Knowing that my time is on it's way but simply, not yet
What's the point of laying low if no one notices your doing it?
You advertise the moves you make instead of just pursuing it
My mind is on the mission to be actively persistent
If you're really making noise, eventually they listen
My hand is on the handle of a hammer
Pounding on the nails until the grime becomes the grandeur
Say that I'm delusional... I say that I'm inspired
I basically just want to live a life that I'll admire
You basically just want to work a job and then retire
I'd rather spend my free time preaching to a sleeping choir
I kinda love this shit, it's more than just a fucking hobby
So if you wanna doubt what I can do, sit back and watch me
I'm that dude that takes a negative and negative
And multiplies that shit until it's positive and makes it big and all the sudden, everything's exactly what I say it is
I ain't gonna quit until my family's chillin'
I truly retrained my train of thought to keep chasing and keep buildin'
I've been patient, I've been waiting, I've been making that brilliance
Nobody's gonna give you shit until you kick in the door and kill em
OK, I ain't gonna sit around watching you do what you do and then not do it too
Cause I'm laid back doesn't mean I lay back, I stay active and I make moves... true
Ain't nobody listening, but it's all good
Ain't nobody listening, but it's all good
Ain't nobody listening, but it's all good
I'ma do this shit til it's understood
That I got this... Gotta shine bright til they watch it
No watch on the wrist, but I'm flossin'
Not much of a lust for the lavish
Fam gotta eat, so I'm stuck trying to grab it
I'ma go get this cash
Give it all back to the fam that I have
All I really wanna see is everybody eat
So until that day, I may never go to sleep
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9. |
Burn Out
03:54
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I do this for my family
Obsessed with success until I slip into insanity
I say I'm gonna do it, so I follow through
Swim inside a dead sea long enough, it swallows you... it's true
And I'm trying to be that dude still
Traveling uncharted, trespassing where the truth builds
I was in a bath tub with a salt shaker
The next thing I know, I'm holding on to melting glaciers
Now, water world with a widespread ice patch
Poking through the plastic on a momentary life raft
Waiting for the flood to float me up until I'm flying
Maybe I'll be sinking... Either way, I'm dying... it's cool ya'll
It's all good, man I promise
That's why I'm working over time to get something accomplished
I contemplate quitting every time I get it started
Stumble over doubt until you learn to disregard it... for real
And I'll be doing this forever...
Cause every day, I dedicate to being better... it's better
I'll be doing this forever
Until I'm better
And that's just how it is...
You're only gonna get what you can give
This is every single thing that I've ever thought about
Taking place in a personified fire til I'm out... out... out
And if it's running out, let the smoke fill the room
This is dedicated to my friends leaving us too soon
It's fucked up but honestly, I think about it daily
I still recall the moment that I noticed you were changing
Fading in and out of conciousness, I could see your eyes roll back
Trapped in a hospital, where the lines go flat
Flashing the image right in front of me
Ever since I saw it, I have not been sitting comfortably
Comforting a mother that I knew would not recover
The father and the bottle start re speaking to each other
Chasing any chance of a change to occur
Into an oblivion that fades to a blur
And that's the type of pain that nobody can explain
And that's the type of pain that nobody can explain
And that's the type of pain that nobody can explain
Because every time we talk, I know everything has changed
I can't imagine everything that's running through your mind
It's racing in a circle, trying to leave it all behind
It's gonna be alright, really that's all I can say
I'm not sure if I mean it, but I wish it every day
It's gonna be OK
And that's just how it is...
You're only gonna get what you can give
This is every single thing that I ever thought about
Taking a place in a personified fire til it's out... out... out
You take the light away from me, I promise that I'll shine
I'm not sure what it is, but it's embedded in my mind
Making something out of nothing, nothing isn't really anything
If everything you do is what you are then start envisioning
I'm visiting epiphanies that sit between the sky
And everything above it that we cannot see with eyes
I look up and imagine magic manifesting peace
Listen close enough and you can hear it when it speaks
And this is what I am, this is everything I need
Until my body fails me, and then my soul is free
And if it doesn't fly, then I hope to God it floats
So I can finally rise and become more than a ghost
And this is what I am, this is everything I need
Until my body fails me, and then my soul is free
And If it doesn't fly, then I hope to God it floats
So I can finally rise and become more than a ghost
I'm gettin close, yall... I'm gettin close
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10. |
Victory Lap for Losers
02:45
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And this goes out to everyone that said I wouldn't make it
With all the nothing that's been given to me, I had to take it
Put myself upon this pedestal and stood until they stared
Reflecting light, to lead the blind til vision is repaired
I can feel the future formulating right outside my finger tips
That's why I manipulate my mental state to reach for it
Seen some shit, like all my friends dying right in front of me
Mentally and physically, this place is trying to fuck with me
Ain't nobody touching me, that's probly cause I'm high
Although, I'm completely sober, I feel dusted out my mind
I don't think that I can take the expectations that I face
I got some absurd assumption that I'll summon something great... wait
What's the point to thinking if no action is behind it?
Every time I think about quitting, I'm constantly reminded
Of the fact that all my family is barely above water
So on that day I stop, then I must have much more to offer
I often think that I'm a fucking failure and it's kinda true
But it's okay because I know that failure's what refines your view
Panoramic, I can see it all from where I sit
My third eye is bird's eye, but I don't sleep so worm's, I get
Barely getting started homie, don't you think we're leaving now
Hoping Nick Arcade can make a thousand beats to hold me down
So I can do this shit to death and kill every day I'm here
Even when I'm eighty, I'll be writing rhymes from my wheel chair
When I pass away, I'll be a poltergeist with punchlines
Possessing shitty rappers every night to block their sunshine
Purgatory that I'm placed within cannot be permanent
Punishment is meant to prove a point, to which you learn from it
I'm a work in progress that's here to work and progress
Until I find a place to rest and wander out beyond flesh
God Bless, I'm ghost, gone, going out with guns drawn
Shooting starts from off the moon I sit behind the sun on
God Bless, I'm ghost, gone, going out with guns drawn
Shooting stars from off the moon I set behind the sun on
On and on and on... On and on and on
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